I'm a klutz.

Yep! That's me! Mrs. Klutz-O.

I don't know why but the past couple weeks I find myself breaking things. Or scratching new cars. Or breaking favorite glasses. It's not like I try, I just end up breaking things.

It's eating at me more than it should. It's like I can't forgive myself for damaging these material things. Now every time I park my car I will park it far away from the imperfect vehicle. Every time I pick a cup to drink out of I will pick something plastic and old. What's next?  What else will I stress out over?

Bah. Something new I apparently need to work on. Just in case working on the jealousy and frustration of not having my will be done wasn't enough.

Yeah, I'm feeling overloaded and I am not really sure on how to start battling it all.

Although, I have begun to see progress. Just today there is a friend that I envy so much, you see, she has my dream job. Perfect age group to teach, and in a public school. That's what I want! And today she posted a status that made me get that pang of jealousy.

Yowch. I said to myself. And then I remembered...Hey, you. This is something you're trying to work on. You would hope your friends would be happy for you. So I thought about it, and I actually began feeling happy for my friend. I am so proud of her! She has accomplished her dream. And someday, I will too. God has that all mapped out already.



In other news I went out of my comfort zone and went to a young women's craft night that a group of women try to hold every month or so. I didn't know anyone there, I just went on the faith that I would find a way to converse with them and have a good time.

I did have a good time! I'm not saying I was 100% comfortable to be myself, but it was nice. I don't know if I'll be establishing relationships with them, I hope to, but I can't count on that. But I am proud of myself for stepping out there and doing that!

I also contacted the worship leader at this church we have been going to. I meet with him at the church next week! I am hoping to get involved and maybe make new friends! I miss leading worship, or being involved in leading worship. The lack of worship ministry has definitely impacted me spiritually.

I'm still apprehensive about everything here, but God certainly has a plan. Jay has been working on a business idea with his Mom and StepDad, and just recently some new exciting news has come out of that. The business has been quiet for a while, and then this past week (when I was getting way more discouraged than as of late), this new exciting news happened! That can't be an accident :)

And that's all for tonight, world. It's time for this tired woman to go to sleep.