Fable Realizations

So, I stayed up last night playing video games.

What? Yep. I said video games. I have recently been sucked into Fable. I beat Fable II and now I'm on Fable III, this time, with no help from my husband...because I'm just awesome like that (He pretty much helped me beat the whole game in Fable II).

Anyway. I'm not here to brag about my awesome gaming skillz. Or...make me look like a loser... :-P

I was playing video games and got this overwhelming sense of guilt. You see, I've been playing this game almost religiously. And I'm embarrassed to say that I've probably played about 2 hours a day...at least. That's a LOT of time in my day.

Topic switch. I have not been attempting to give my God any time at all throughout my days. To be honest, I don't want to. I used to love giving Him time everyday, and then somehow I lost interest. Probably because I didn't feel that the time with Him was worth it. I didn't "get anything" out of it. There was a time, however, that I did. I craved His Word daily, I craved talking to Him. I miss those days, when I felt so "filled". And when I began feeling "un-filled", I stopped.

Back to video games. So last night when I began feeling an overwhelming sense of guilt, I realized how much time I was giving to video games. And how much time I was not giving to the Lord. Certainly I could have spared an easy 5 minutes (at the very least) to read a passage in His Word and pray sometime in my day, but I didn't. And I wasn't.

So. This morning, before I turned on ANY electronics like my phone, TV, computer, iPod, etc (because once I do that I find it's hard to stop and give time to God) I ate my breakfast contemplating how to do devotions. To be honest I don't even know what to do anymore.

So after a long talk with God (recalling everything I've felt about my relationship with Him in the past few years) I cracked open my "The Daily God Book: A Year of Listening For God" and read the devotion for January 6th. It was about God's faithfulness through the generations. HA. That's something I definitely needed to read. But more importantly, after my reading I continued to talk with God.

After a random list of topics that I prayed about, I eventually ended up on a topic that had nothing to do with today's devotion. I realized that I stopped asking the Lord for opportunities to love people. Because, well, working in retail a year ago, let me just say loving on some people seemed impossible. GEEZ some of those customers can be hard to love. And if you've worked retail you know what I am talking about.

I realized why I stopped asking for those opportunities to love on people. It's because I was hoping to get opportunities to love people that I considered "easy to love". You know, the people who look like they are hurting, and just need a comforting word, or maybe a pat on the back. But heaven forbid I love on someone who has done me wrong. And those were the opportunities God kept on giving me.

God never wants to challenge you with something that's easy. Granted, there will be the times when it is easy to love, because well, those people do need love. But the people who aren't easy to love, they need love just as much. And I'm hoping to succeed at that one of these days. It won't be easy, but if I keep asking God for those opportunities, perhaps I will begin to succeed at loving the impossible.

So my challenge for the day, please feel free to join me :)...

Love on someone today who you don't think deserves it. They need it just as much as the rest of us.