Why I Love You (In no particular order)

You make me laugh.

You understand me. And even when I make no sense, you still love me.

You enjoyed Disney World with me. Even with my ridiculous childlike tendencies :)

You're the hardest worker I know. You deserve the world. 

You want the best for me. Even if it means you don't get what you want. You're selfless.

You see my heart.

You let me know when I'm being ridiculous.

You are honest. I can always trust your word.

You see my tears and try to mend them.

You enjoy cooking with me :)

You love IKEA.

You smell good.

You love God. And you want to please Him.

You care for others.

You want to help other people.

You enjoy making people happy.

You dance when no one is watching :)

You like every type of music ranging from William Fitzsimmons to Nikki Minaj.

You love your family.

You love my family.

You think I'm beautiful.

You open my car door. And shout "stop!" when I'm about to open my own car door.

You married me.

You have braved so many midnight showings, even though you don't like big groups of people.

You are thoughtful.

You make me feel like a superstar.

You understand that even though I say I'm okay, that I'm not.

You went behind my back with my Dad to make sure I had a piano to play <3

You love my love for playing music.

You have never seen me teach, but assume that I have to be the best.

You know I'm supposed to be a teacher. Even when I doubt myself.

You help do "chores" around the house. And I don't even have to ask.

You're so stinkin' handsome.

You're humble.

You were meant for me. God made you that way.

You love Nutella.

You get so passionate about your work.

You help me with every technology discrepancy.

You get so excited about the strangest things. Like Sour Patch Kids.

You buy me chocolate. 

You sing to me. I love it when you sing.

You are my technology geeky husband.

You have made me the happiest woman in the WORLD.

I think I could keep going, but it's time I move on with my day. Happy Birthday to the most amazing man I know. I love you, Jay Stark!

-starkstruck-

Life. As of recently.

Well?

Life has certainly taken a complete turn as of 2 months ago. It seems like yesterday I was sitting there, being a drama queen, whining and crying that life wasn't going the way I wanted it to.

I certainly learned a lot, and a lot about myself over the last year.  I am an anxious person. I tend to live in the future. I envy others. I'm very self-centered.

I also learned a lot to counter-act those not so great qualities I learned about myself. While I may be taking medicine to help my anxiety, I have learned to try and not sweat the small stuff. Or even the big stuff (that stuff is much harder to "not sweat" but I'm learning). I've learned to love what I have now, and to enjoy life NOW. I've learned that Jay and I have actually quite a bit. I love what we have and feel content with where we are. As far as being self-centered? Well it's a battle every day to remember that it's not all about me. But it's not.

So while the last year was probably the biggest struggle of my life, it taught me a lot and has helped me to realize many things. It wasn't all bad either, there were many things I enjoyed through the last year as well.

We are enjoying our new apartment. It was just as exciting as when we moved into our first place in Fond du Lac. Gathering things, and setting up our new place after living with others for over a year. We are enjoying our relatively new church, and the people we are meeting there. Jay is loving his new job and I enjoy subbing - it works until I can someday get a teaching job! Whenever that may be :) However I will need to find something for when sub jobs begin to die out and summer comes, but I'm not worried about that.

ANYWAY!

This last weekend was amazing. So was the weekend before that!

Last weekend Jay and I had our wonderful friends Heather and Tim visit. We had a blast at the Mall of America, IKEA, a late night cafe in Uptown called Uncommon Grounds, making "Pad Thai", and just enjoying eachothers' company. If only we could be closer so we could enjoy eachothers' company more often.

This past weekend I had my friend Laura over to make Christmas Cookies...which didn't turn out but we still made cookies and enjoyed eachothers' company! Jay and I went on a triple date with my grandparents-in-law :), my sister-in-law and her boyfriend. It was SO much fun. And we finished the Saturday with a duet with my friend Allison and ended the night with barrels of fun at Applebee's for half-price apps. Sunday involved church, visiting at the Jackson Resort, and finally, an Ugly Sweater Party.

So what does the next weekend bring? Christmas. After that, I'm hoping for a quiet weekend and then maybe eventually some more guests! :)

I couldn't say this 2 and a half months ago, because of where my heart was, but today I can finally say: I love life. Again. And it feels good.